There is pain, but there does not have to be suffering.

Today was filled with a lot of physical pain. The usual. The pain days are pretty much the same, but my reaction differs, which makes it a different experience each time. I needed to be very busy, so the pain was in the way. I did not devote the time or mindfulness to lean into it, to accept it. Unlike my cousin, I was not willing to be present to it.

Because of this it has utterly exhausted me. It is like working hard and trying to move fluently while carrying a heavy chain wrapped all around my body. This was a day where not only was there pain, but also suffering. Upon reflection, I could have suffered less.